Memorable day, etched in my brain

 13/7/2022

The day Far and I decided to arrange ahead of time so that we can finally take a one-day trip. Hehe it has been a month plus of casual planning and the day finally arrived. To be honest, initially it was a choice between Ipoh and Melaka. After listing out the iteniaries for both, kinda just seemed like slightly more to do and eat in Melaka, hence the decision was made. Dah lah that week was the last week for most people who are leaving for their placements (which I was supposed to be part of as well, but due to someone's screw up, my batch in sungai buloh was omitted hmm, so September? it is then). The last time I stepped foot in Melaka was to visit David and that was like in 2019 (pic is also still on my Instagram), and tbh this time the iteniary is pretty much similar to then, just that this was a Halal food and one day trip instead of a 3D2N thing. First time driving south on my own as well, in the Honda Civic, so can't lie that I wasn't looking forward to it from the moment we planned it, was nice to just stop caring about the hospital life just for one day too hehe.

Our starting time kept getting slower and slower cause it's a working day and we didn't wanna be stuck in any jam and she had just worked like 6-7 days in a row, so wanted her to get enough rest for sure. (Plus I just met Mich, David, and Hon last night before they all left Selangor for their respective places (Johor, UK, Sarawak in the exact order). Hence, I picked her up around 9am and we grabbed McD breakfast near her house before starting our journey. After a nice and short 1 and a half hour drive, we got to Melaka already. Was a rather uneventful drive, just nice chilling, talking and just enjoying the moment. We stopped at Jonker Street first, had a confusion of parking in a yellow spot in front of a hotel for a good 20 minutes, before deciding to park somewhere near Kampung Hulu mosque that was way safer. Called David as well to make sure I wasn't gonna get saman-ed and this bro decided to pay for my parking for the entire day. So gamdong weih T.T

Hence, we started with a river walk along the Malacca river. To be honest most of the stores looked like drinking spots that were open mainly at night, so it was just a chill walk all the way up to Red Square. We went into H&M for a while (which post trip we learned will be moving out of that area) to cool off and snap some photos haha. Then, went to the usual tourist spots, A Famosa gate, St Paul Church, the red building thingy, even Dataran Pahlawan mall which provided another good place to rest and toilet facilities. Then, me being a smart ass, thinking that the putu piring place was really near, started walking along Jonker Street, thinking it's somewhere there, turns out to be another km away. Luckily Far was okay with walking with me by the side of the road all the way just to get the putu piring (which is still amazing I have to say, however priced at RM1.50 per piece now.) Honestly, by the time we got to the shop I felt so bad because I did promise her we weren't gonna tire her out, so I booked a Grab to get back to our car (just RM6, no biggie, although the driver took a way longer route lol, not my problem tho, nice to be in the air cond for a bit), then we cooled off at Kg Hulu Cendol place, which honestly by that point, we have excessive gula Melaka intake problems (it's like 2pm now btw). The food at that place was so ridiculously priced at like 11 bucks for chicken rice or something like that, so we actually didn't have any real food per se yet, but filled our stomachs with sweet stuff already. So, I decided I really need some coffee to cut down all this sweetness.

The inital plan was to go to Sharing Plates, but my smart ass forgot to check that it was actually closed on a Wednesday (like alot of other stuff apparently, the aquarium thingy), so we settled for the Daily Fix cafe, a short walk to Jonker Street. We arrived at the cafe ~ 3,4pm ish and we still had to wait around 20 minutes to get a table (as the place was actually a pretty small cafe, and upstairs wasn't open.) We looked through the menu while waiting and proceeded to the counter to order once we got a table. We ordered a squid ink risotto for mains, an expresso pancake (cause we were so done with gula Melaka at that point), and for drinks, long black for me, lemonade for her. Focusing on the risotto, the first bite was salt, the second bite was also salt, generally a very salty dish lol, had to wash it down with my coffee cause it honestly didn't taste of anything other than salt. After ordering, I regretted getting the coffee pancake as well, cause it was literally the same coffee being used for the pancake and the one that I'm drinking. Genius. The drinks were decent, nothing too out of the ordinary. Quoting David, don't expect much from cafes in Melaka, especially after visiting the ones in KL. We left with very full stomachs back to my car to chill. I rested in the car while she went to the masjid to pray. She did suggest to go to a masjid that was really pretty but we settled for the one near the car. To be honest should have went to the one near the sea. That masjid looked so pretty and also the view overlooking the straits was quite amazing. Too bad my stomach was acting up, so she had to put up with some creepy uncle loitering around the female praying session (which I can't do anything about :/) Mistakes were made pfft.

At this point, we casually made our way to Klebang beach. On the way there I recognized some parts that David brought us previously. Hence, we made a pit stop at a place where I liked taking photos at previously (one of it is even on Insta), the white performing arts place near the sea. We arrived around 5pm so the counters were all closed already, and there really wasn't much people there (same as last time tbh, nothing much has changed). We snapped tons of photos, chilled facing the sea for abit, got stalked by a black dog a bit as well, fun times :))) Next, headed to Klebang Beach and walao.. the water quality really is horrible LOL. It was my first time being at the beach and gosh, I dunno what I was expecting, but it was something better I guess? The sand part was fine, just that it led to a shallow cove and the water in it was just, dark. with trash. Not a great sight. Walked from one end to the other and that was about it tbh. Not much to do there if ur not a family and not hungry. Honestly if you wanna chill, the performing arts centre place is probably better (clearer waters, rocks to sit on, windy breeze). The original plan was to havc dinner at Pak Putra's Naan place, but we were just so stuffed we decided to have dinner in Shah Alam instead (my friend did roll her eyes upon hearing this and I know it sounds weird, but we just really couldn't eat anymore LOL). Hence drove nearly 2 hours to get back to Shah Alam (with 1 stop in between for my condition ahem ahem), and we had dinner at Ehsan's instead. Still had Naan if that counts for something hahaha along with their Tandoori Chicken. It actually tasted quite good and the pricing was relatively cheap. So will definitely try their Briyani one day. I fetched her home afterwards and we said our goodbyes. Just great vibes driving home that night ya know hehe :)))

THEN, HAHA ok this is the funny part. So, abit of background, Far has been coughing for like 2 weeks now and initial Covid RTKs have all shown negative results. PLUS, she had a close contact with her uncle a week before, and still the results have been negative. Generally with this context, there really was nothing wrong at all for us to continue going on this trip. Nearing the end of the trip, apparently she started feeling like something was wrong, hence we had our masks on throughout the entire journey back from Melaka.After getting home, she still felt off, and stared having sore throat, hence she did a RTK test, boom positive. I had just finished showering when I heard that. After travelling the whole day and walking under the sun, naturally I was feeling hot as well, hence mini panics inside you know. Plus, looking at the oncall timetable, I really don't want to look for replacements, so I tested myself for the first 2 days, and thank goodness it was all negative. Then, I was feeling better so I decide to swab only if new symptoms arised. Mind you we shared food and drinks, was maskless throughout most of the journey, and somehow I remained negative throughout the entire supposed incubation period, so I got lucky or my body already had strong antibodies towards Covid since I'm a survivor ehehehe. So good for Far that she got to rest for the next 7 days post Melaka, although she was coughing alot for most of it and someone was stubborn to take Augmentin... She is still having minimal coughs post covid, so hopefully it does improve, since it was affecting her sleep at one point. One week after that by the way, her sister got covid HAHA. So yeah the entire family was basically a covid survivor at this point. Which got me to think, either the covid booster really worked or my active immunity somehow worked? Just grateful I didn't get it another time again.

All in all, was a really really wonderful trip, better if we could put up a night as well so that there was more time and flexibility to do stuff, but with restrictions I get it hehe. Still enjoyed it alot. Plus, decided that I wanted to post on my Instagram, cause there were just really nice photos that I wanna keep on Insta for a while. Obviously I did think of the consequences of it before posting it, but seeming that we are still getting stares while we go out till this day, like who cares at this point. We both know where this is going, we owe no one any explanations. I posted it, and obviously the comments exploded abit. I was relievcd mostly to be honest, although September was coming and we all know what that means... Let's worry about it when we get there. For now, the vibes from this trip alone should be positive and only positive. Thank you Far for agreeing to go on this trip with me. 💞

Photo time!! Although most of here Insta saw first, and most is just gonna be in my hard drive hehe.

Top 2 most favourite photo in this trip hahaha. In H&M Jonker :))

Attempt at making her take the more cheesy "candid" photos HAHAH

The delicious ass putu pirings that my stomach couldn't eat anymore xD

If only it was more centred, oh wellllll

My view on the drive back hehe :)

That's all folks hehe :)

MO Woes

L Hey hey, it's been a good 3-month break from blogging and I'm back. From the looks of my hit count above, no one else has visited this blog other than me HAHA oh well, kinda expected tbh. So here I am sitting down in front of my laptop after 2 months of being a MO to reflect. Haven't got to update my current status so here it goes. Hi I'm Dr Yeo, currently a floating MO in O&G HSgB. Before any of you ask, no I did not ask for this, but this guy forgot to apply for his floating position, hence was practically dumped to O&G. Luckily Hana was already here so I was pleased with that, plus Ain, Beckie and Shanna came along with me so at least I didn't felt alone. Meanwhile, Shing Li managed to get into medical. 

On a quick recap, I did mention I was starting my MRCP prep, cause I was planning to do it in May with Shing, but guess who had to back out as soon as he found out he was going to O&G. Not doing O&G for a year plus and suddenly had to be thrown back to do O&G as a MO. I'll be the clueless guy walking around the ward. Hence, I had to study O&G stuff, so Shing proceeded for MRCP on her own. I basically just burnt money on Pastest HAHA. In the end, I barely did 5% of the whole question bank? Yeah was quite bad at discipline. Anyway, now that I'm a MO, the timetable basically works 8-5 unless when you are oncall. I've been put part of the O&G covid team since the beginning and currently still am (although covid patients are dwindling down and that's a good sign overall for the community). Being put in the covid team basically also neuters ur knowledge tbh. You are basically stuck with maternal tachycardia for 90% of the cases and most of them come down with adequate hydration or with natural progression of Covid. Occasionally one or two you get pulmonary embolisms and even then, it's not massive that requires interventional radiology for embolectomy that kind. So tbh have been going through a bit of brain drain. Although there are the occasional oncalls down in the labour room which are really helpful at making me feel like the dumbest person ever. To be honest, after becoming MO, I felt like I was much more knowledgeful when I was a HO, definitely. Secondly, the job scope tbh hasn't changed that much. We don't actually have enough HOs to go around so you have to see cases yourself as well, type them into the system (double work, just basically HSgB style lol), and sometimes take blood and deliver babies. Do rounds yourself, basically HO 2.0, cause you have to discuss cases with senior MOs as well. Then there is the extra factor of politics within the MO group as well that I won't really wanna go into la. Fast forward to now that it's 2 months in. I've tried to learn antenatal scans, and it's been a challenging road. By no means am I good at it now. Heck, half the time I'm still wondering if I'm really measuring the femur lol. Still, a long way to go for that. Delivered a few babies now, but I still need to learn about perineum repair. It's always been a challenge for me since HO days as suturing really isn't my strong suit. Hence, happy to have senior MOs and also JMs teaching me, still need to practice a lot tho. 

Now recently got into a little bit of hot water as a MO. The first event I would say that legit got me worried. So, our ward has clinic duties as well, so I've been learning to see clinic patients over the past few weeks as well. Our clinic isn't fully operational as of now. I attended to a patient with a previous scar done in a private hospital and had to decide on a mode of delivery. To be honest, it was my first patient to decide the mode of delivery, and I basically took the patient's word for it that the op was uneventful and subsequently counselled for VBAC vs LSCS. Even my senior Kak Raf was there to help me council. However, the patient had uncontrolled PIH and hence was admitted to HR after d/w the consultant oncall. He did mention not to include anything about the mode of delivery as that will be decided by the specialist in the HR, hence I deleted everything about the consultation and the plan was just to send the patient to HR. A week later, the patient was admitted for leaking and when the specialist attended the patient she was curious as to who counselled the patient as no documentation was in the system. I was called down and the whole situation was explained. Long story short I got screwed for a DANGEROUS counsel for VBAC because I wasn't sure on the operation report. Honestly, I based it off the 2nd laparotomy one for adhesions and the patient's word of mouth that the op was uneventful. So that was definitely a learning point. Trace op notes and document. Will rmb till I die lol. Got screwed by the specialist was not fun, really screws up your confidence. Dahlah you know you don't really know enough of O&G, now your confidence level keeps taking a beating, really starts instilling fear whenever you have to present a case and all. So it's nice to have this weekend off after being oncall for so many weekends. Kinda sucks nowadays as specialists are ramping up and being more strict on MOs. Focus turns to the juniors and the seniors guiding them. Indirectly the pressure trickles down to the junior MOs cuz u know, there barely are any HOs. LOL Hopefully I manage to regain confidence and be a better MO I guess. It's a steep learning curve definitely.

Regarding the future, I have no idea when the placement will come. I did put in my selections. Top three were Selangor, Perak, and Penang. You want justifications? I honestly have next to none for them HAHA. I kinda filled in the form a lil too late. Selangor is a no brainer, it's like 99% won't get one. Next is Perak, it's nearer, and I've heard good things I feel. However, will need to crank up my shitty Cantonese, which will be an obstacle I can foresee. Next on the choice is Penang (which I hope dear God not PGH). Hahaha, I studied there, my mum is from there, I have family members there. I dunno I think it's possible although with my mental scar there, shouldn't really be an issue. That being said I'm like 75% sure I'm gonna head over to East Malaysia. Plus, being a half baked Covid MO, I can literally say I am like next to useless. So going there will be good to pick up skills, but honestly I wish I'm a better MO, although I have been really lazy since becoming a MO. I have studied a bit but gosh my focus is totally not sustained. Even typing this blog post took almost a whole day. Hopefully I can get my shit together, and things can be uphill from here. Half of me wish the placement comes earlier because then I can start planning for the long term. The next half of me wish it gets delayed as much as possible. Family and Far are mainly why.

So update on me and Far. Things have been slowly escalating, and honestly everything is going great. Although now we are almost near the endgame, can start to feel maybe we are both pulling back a bit. This might be my brain going on overdrive and overanalyzing things AS USUAL, but this was the vibe I got... We did go on regular dates and just impromptu ones which are always fun. Sometimes may not have anything to say, but it's just nice walking or sitting beside each other. It's one thing that is just indescribable and just feels so right. Challenges for us remain and it will never go away. Stares are common, from restaurant go-ers to mall patrons, to cashiers. It all doesn't go away. Not sure if Far notices it, or just the stares are mainly on me HAHA. Honestly I ignore them, but u can feel them staring down ur neck LOL. It's fine. Just stare back at them and that usually does the trick xD We had some talks about religion, especially during Ramadhan month and I'm glad she was accepting of my "liberal" thoughts, especially onto a strict religion such as Islam. She has been really cool honestly. There are times that she gets down about her dad and I try my best to let her process them. It's tough to be her really. Everyone expects her to be ok and it doesn't give her space to grieve at all. The grief will always be there, can't expect it to just go missing. Just wish people would be more understanding and back off from their expectations. Oh well, but sometimes I really wish I can do more for her just to lift that burden. Let's not discuss anything about the end until it comes. I know its stupid to feel sad for something that has been in the books since before we even started. But since it's almost like July, can't help to start to feel it you know. The impending sadness. Will be down and out for a bit I think lol. It's just that we are comfortable just hanging out. This is no doubt the least physical relationship I've had (no duh), but in a way it's actually quite enjoyable (with occasional frustratingness) HAHA!! Let's just let life continue on until it decides to blow up in my face. Meanwhile, I'm gonna enjoy every second of it :))

That's it for now I guess, the usual would be some photos hehe so stay tuned and I'll catch you guys (I'm saying like there actually is even anyone else) later. Take care peeps <3

Hehe postcall meal after going to Oiso x2 and its not open. Was a lovely lovely date :))

Cafe visit with parents and sis (clearly not in photo)

First midnight movie. Memorable forever!! Fantastic Beasts hehe :)

Cody and le new dog 

Metup with Jason and Vivian postcall before they leave Msia for good :/

Moments before 6B opens up for non-Covid patients. Road to endemicity!

FIRST SET OF SCRUBS I OWN THANKS TO FAR hehe :))

Life is short. Awesome, yet short.

Helloo... The first post of 2022 to kick things off. Sadly, it probably won't be on a very kind note. Pretty sure no one reads this anymore as the viewer count goes up one by one when I visit it only xD

Short update, I have just completed my 5-week long covid rotation, and today marks the day that I'm officially back in the ED roster for another month only and then the end of my HOship will come. Not really ready for it to finish to be honest. I've got my full registration number already but your boy has been so lazy to get his APC done (just need to give the person in charge a call but.. lazy LOL). This past month has been quite mundane to be honest. Will never forget the first day when we arrived in the wards (4B and 4C), the SN and MOs were in a bit of a shock as to why are there HOs cause during that time, the admissions weren't that bad and the MOs were in shift system, meaning effectively there are at least 2-4 MOs working BD shifts. Hence, even cm bloods were pretty doable, and doctors can pretty much rest at night. Plus, their timetable was so amazing, AM, PM, PN, OFF, basically working 24 hours every 4 days pfft.... Hence, for the first 2 weeks, HO lives were quite easy as well, a bit of admissions and basically being phlebotomists, didn't really learn that much tbh.

After 2 weeks, they finally decided to re-implement oncall system, meaning after 5 there will only be one MO oncall in each ward. For 4B and 4C, they are considered lucky as they have HOs, the upper floor ones have really got it rough, 10+ admissions at night with cm bloods to take. From the stories that my seniors are posting, the specialists and registrars can be a bit unforgiving when the cm bloods are late or something, which really is a GIANT pain in the ass. After CNY, the cases have now re-raised to 20k again, and with MAEPS closed, HSB has gone to absolute chaos. Even in ED, yellow zone is like way over-capacity, sometimes patients get sent up to covid ward without any bloods, its quite terrible tbh. Hence, they may say with the booster dose, hospitalization is reduced, but damn, if they are all still coming to one place only, its still hell for us too. Hopefully going back to ED won't be that big of a trouble for me really...

On a more personal note, I have decided to get a bit of a start to get my MRCP on the way. Hon has his FRCEM part 1 done, Denzel is about to get his part 2 done, think its time I start something as well. Therefore, I signed up for the Pastest till May to at least have something done. Shared it with Shing Li and here we go!! The questions have been quite challenging not going to lie, so curse myself for not really focusing hard back in Dublin HAHA. Loads of basic science and anatomy was just like I have never heard of this. There is still a lot of work to be done. Just found out that Dr Azreen (my beloved medical MO in HSAS) had started to prepare herself for MRCP too, but putting it in August, cause she thinks she will be much more well prepared then.. and then there is me.. who is like still playing DOTA and all, wanting to get it done in May. LOL ARE YOU KIDDING ME. I'll update y'all on how things really go I guess.

Done for the stuff that are very obvious. Here comes the more inner feeling things so if yall get bored with long pointless rants, can just draw a line here and stop.

This month has been a bit of a tricky one emotionally, got me really thinking in my brain how in touch am I with my own emotions. Let's start from the beginning.

Farzainin has had a really rough month. It was really bad. It all started on 27th Jan 2022. Her dad first started having drooping eyelids and a bit of fever. He was brought to Avisena and was treated for conjunctivitis, all was well for now, but 2 days later he had a change in character, and Far was there for him and brought him to Avisena first. Things weren't looking great and Far opted for him to go to HSAS to monitor him. I did a bit of discussion with her prior to the final decision to go to HSAS as I was oncall in 4B that night. This brave girl stayed outside the ED for almost the entire night just to wait on any news or anything that she can help (cause she was basically booted from the ED). I mean I tried to be there for her through the phone as much as I could. Luckily her best friend Fatin was there for her throughout the night. Things only went downhill from there cause he had to be intubated and basically things were not looking up. Long story short he got admitted to HDW, where I visited him once there. Sad to say I didn't go in and meet him face to face that much, just caught up with his ventilator settings and all his investigations. Tried to make sense of his situation, turns out he didn't get a simple conjunctivitis but a full endolphtamitis, complicated with a few other infections. I was trying to be there for her for the entire time cause it was hard for her to work knowing that her dad was lying in a bed in the same hospital. I wish I could share her pain, I really wished so. She didn't deserve any of this pain that she was feeling. Knowing her back story and now, this thing was happening to her dad. That pain must have been unbearable. Hence, I tried to bring her out one morning after my night shift to help relieve her feelings a bit. We did go to a cafe

Then came a day, 9th Feb 2022, when her dad actually woke up after they turned off the sedation. Things looked pretty well at that point. He had a full GCS, and she finally got the chance to talk to him after so long. It really felt like a wonderful upturn of events and it felt so amazing. Just imagine how elated I felt, for her would have been such a huge relief. He managed to get extubated and moved out to 10A. Things somewhat improved just a little bit. Few days later, he just became more and more lethargic, that's when you know his kidneys aren't holding up. Unfortunately uncle passed away on 17th Feb 2022 after battling in HSAS like a fierce lion for so many days. 

The thing is.. during this whole time where I wanted to help support her, gave her space to grief, gave her space for her to be with her family, I felt quite bad tbh. Helpless for all you know. I thought I would have been immune to death a bit, cause to be honest I feel like I've distanced myself from a lot of emotions. I tend to not care about all of the things now, think this all started after my uni days, just to keep myself in a state of peace. But this time this hit me hard, and I didn't even have the pleasure to meet with uncle at all. In fact, I actually don't even know why I'm feeling that terrible. The fact that I know Far is feeling really down and there is absolutely nothing that I can do for her? It's possible. 

Another theory that I have, is probably because we both know that this is a timed relationship, as much as we love to, we can't fully commit to this relationship without it bouncing back out to blow up in our face when it finally ends. To be honest, this idea of a relationship wasn't very celebrated when I shared it with some of my close friends. Partially why I can't actually share this feeling with anyone else is because their thought would be basically "you did this to yourself". Can't blame them tho. But looking back, do I regret starting things this way back in July? Honestly no. I'm just pissed at the way the system works, and the idiotic cronies that run this bloody country. I enjoy going out with her, talking to her, movie dates.. it all just feels so comfortable. We could be talking bout the most random of shits (partially cause our interests are not that much alike, but we have just about enough mutual interests hehe), so sometimes the topic could fly to random places. It just feels homey. Then again, it could be the honeymoon phase talking...  We might as well be living a LDR with the actual amount of times we meet lol. Just you know, LDR within the state. 

As per my previous post, I wonder and wonder.. am I really being dumb for being that stubborn for my principles... Religion doesn't play that big part in my life... My fam and I don't pray regularly, but we still do respect the traditions that come with it. But if you ask me to follow a religion that has very strict rules and a very judgmental community that comes along with it (Christianity with Abby and Islam with Far), I would value my freedom over it, plus it's hard doing all the stuff ur supposed to do for the religion if your body is opposed to the whole basis and idea of that religion. It's fucking difficult. It really is. 

All in all, I think in the end my feeling is more of being helpless. Helpless on how to help Far, helpless on our situation, helpless in my work area (Gonna go back to ED and continue being undermined again). I guess that's just the tip of the iceberg of what I know. Have to really be more in touch with myself. I'm blogging it here, but no one is going to read it, which brings that bittersweet feeling with it. On one hand, its a sense of privacy, but it is an open blog and I have no plans to privatize it at all. Guess I'll just leave this here to rot with the rest of my memories while I sulkily plan out the rest of my life by making horrible choices everywhere again.

Thank you to the empty 1s and 0s that are reading this, made me feel a bit better :)

Just a random Shin Ramen with cheese, cause it legit tastes better than it looks

Random small cute ass cicak I found on my car hehe :DD

2 pictures for the CNY celebration with the F'wondeerfuls hehe :)

Last date with her prior to this post. Could use a bit of editing to be honest with the colours xD Will get to it someday hehe :)

Uncertainties in life

It probably has been a while since I didn't do an end of posting a reflection blog post. For some reason, at the end of the surgical posting, I just chose to not do one partially cause I felt like I just did the whole rant about the faith thing so I kinda wanna give everything a rest. Little did I know I would be doing one a month into my final posting. 

 

Let's start with whatever is going on now first before we take a short taxi trip back to my end of posting reflection for surgical. My last posting is... the EMERGENCY DEPARTMENT!! To be honest I was kinda happy about getting ED which was what I was hoping to get cause theoretically people say it would prepare me to do Locum jobs after I get my full MMC registration number. Anything for that extra Moolah ya know. Although, did I foresee myself ending up in the ED of HSgB instead of HSAS when I wanted to go to ED at the start of my 5th posting, probably not. Who knew HSgB would start calling back their kulis in the midst of a covid wave. Then again, has the wave actually died down or more of waiting to strike again now with some bloody Omicron variant lurking around Malaysia hmm... Guess we shall see with the months to come, with HSgB still being the mothership of covid lol.

I've been in ED for almost a month now and I've slowly gotten used to it. The shifts are all 12 hours, either from 8am to 8pm. or night shifts from 8pm to 8am. Now, ED HSgB is not fully open to ambulance calls yet hence we are relatively relaxed if compared to the hectic market scenes in HSAS. Only like really emergency cases or covid cases every pop up in our ED. Hence, bedside RTKs and Covid PCRs are pretty much baseline investigations here. It might be a "blessing in disguise" to even get Covid if you present to HSgB because you will be getting a bed there instead of waiting to be referred out. However, let's focus more on my experience going through ED for 3 weeks now, shall we? People used to say that I'm quite fast while doing ward works (which I still don't fully agree with because I've been known to procrastinate quite a bit lol), but when it comes to ED work god am I slow. Let's take inserting branulas for an example, I was never really a great branulogist (passable at most), but once I've seen my bosses insert branulas, damn I'm really shit aren't I. Green branulas inserted everywhere, with the speed and precision of a literal God. That's probably the basics of what a HO is supposed to do but maigod I swear, even MAs and SNs have better skills than you when you are in ED. The ED will run smoothly with or without you essentially. The thing is our minds are so worked up from all 5 previous postings that you're primary job as a HO is to take blood. This mentality kinda carries over to ED and even the EPs have to stress that HOs, your job is not to take blood. Can't help it tho, you see a fresh case come in, no matter from PAC during O&G times, the first thing is to get the bloods settled. MOs will already be there to take the history already anyway, no matter if you've already clerked the patients or not. Hence, better off getting lines and bloods for the patient, just to justify your existence HAHA. So that's a pretty hard mindset to change and will require serious work to change.

*After typing this paragraph, I went to check on why we call it branula while Singapore and Ireland call it cannula. Turns out branula is a Spanish word for catheter... Why is Malaysia using a Spanish term, I will never know I guess HAHA.

Back to the preparation of being a MO and doing Locums after doing ED, I think I would be much prepared if I did my ED rotation in HSAS instead of HSgB. Purely due to the patient load and the difference in responsibility of a HO. It is pretty much a clusterfuck of a warzone in HSAS when I left, where one HO is left to fight against the world in each zone, really can be quite chaotic. Pretty sure things are the same now. Just the other day there was a super terrible flood over Shah Alam and Klang due to some typhoon nearby that caused us to have like 36+ hours of rain non-stop. Things were pretty depressing not going to lie. Roads to Shah Alam were all blocked off by floods so our hospital's ED was on standby for the affected hospitals, but being a Covid Hospital, it's really hard to get patients in purely due to bed statuses. We can only do so much. True enough, this slow and steady pace is good for us to identify all the weak points in our knowledge which I have to say is a lot. Being in HSgB makes your world very enclosed. You are only exposed to so many different diagnoses and it really limits your knowledge. Sure you are expected to read and prepare for anything that comes through those emergency doors, but I don't think I'm that ready for doing Locum or just seeing patients in general. It gets quite sad really. Hospital is apparently gearing towards a hybrid hospital, rumoured on 17th Jan next year, which will greatly amplify the cases we see, but we will also be lacking HOs again, so I'm not sure if it will be such a great idea, all depends on how JKNS wants to play it I guess. For now, I really have to work myself up to read on so many things that I don't know. Luckily I have very nice MOs and EPs so far, loads to learn from. 3 more months to go so let's do this.

Now that I'm in my 6th posting, a few questions keep getting thrown around now. Where do I want to float and what is my future plan. Honestly, before starting HOship I had my mindset on being an endocrinologist, despite me not being the smartest human being in the world. After going through all the postings, some albeit being half-assed no thanks to Covid, the thing that I noticed the most is how busy the Medical department always is. MOs in surgical and ortho can afford to take a chill pill once in a while but medical is just non-stop. The whole hospital kind of relies on the medical department so the workload honestly is insane. So, do I really want to be a medical MO? Although I like medical stuff, so it's hard to decide. That, and also the uncertainty of my future, which brings us to the next part of which paper do I want to take. Am I better off spending that money to go to UK/Ireland or to spend it on doing the MRCP? I mean Denzel is smart AF and he barely passed it, do I even have a chance lol. With my laziness right now, it's hard to be sure that I will be studying hard for MRCP at all. Future plans are always so blurry it's so hard for me to commit. I wish there was like a small hint from my future self on which road to take HAHA. I guess I should start by being less lazy and less engrossed by games then huhu.

Now onto the relationship department!! It's been about 6 months? since Far and I kinda started our little relationship through WhatsApp, went on a few dates and watched some series/movies online. Things have been great tbh. Still, no long term plans from either of us although I think it might be time we had to figure something out because we both know the future plan is very unkind for us. I think I did mention this relationship to a few people. Generally, the response that I got is always shocked at first, like people just don't expect it. To be honest, 2 years ago if you told me this was happening, i wouldn't have believed you lol. I mean this can only go on for a year or two before we both have to face the music of reality. I really do enjoy hanging out with her on dates tho. We've watched 2 Marvel movies in the cinema together hehe :)) (Shaang Chi and Spiderman) Let's really not dwell too much about this I guess. Same mindset as when we first started this. Let's focus on the now and cross over to the new year together :)

That should be it for now, it's new years eve today and I have a night shift going on tonight. I've worked night of Christmas and New Years this year. See you peeps real soon ok. Cheers, and Happy New Year :D <3

As usual some photos for highlights :)

 

 At the restaurant in Tanjung Karang while on a day trip visit to HTK as part of the HSB Surgical team

 

 

With the fun as always Dr Yee Wen, glad to have gotten her as my MO on this trip to HTK :D

 

 

 

 

 Random photo of Codie (Big sis's dog) and me 

 

The long awaited Kiwi's wedding!! :DD

 

 

Final snapshots of Kiwi's wedding with mostly HSAS peeps

 

 

Birthday dinner celebrating 2nd sis's birthday! :)

 

  

Final days in Surg with Nadh, Anis and Shannananana

 

 

Long overdue visit back to Penang to meet with my grandmother!! 

 

As per tradition, EOP get together of TB boys

(first time with Denz, and sis in law xD)

 

 

 Random doodle by my MOs xD (Rise of the Omicron)

 

Post date photo just throwing it in here xD Aliaa's wedding!!

 

 

😊😜 

Faith

I don't do this often anymore. The last few entries are more like footnotes on my HO path for the past 2 years, but I don't think I've dedicated a specific post to like my thoughts in a while. If anyone is expecting a new issue to be tackled, I don't think you know me enough lol. Obviously, it's going to be about what is written on the bloody title HAHA. If anyone has even been following my progress in life, you would know that religion played a big role in my life. This statement, by no means that I'm a religious person LOL.

A short view back into the past, my previous long term serious relationship was with Abigail, which spanned 4 years plus. As you may already know, it ended mutually (well at least to us it is mutual lol) because I just couldn't bear the thought of her constantly having the idea of wanting me to convert to Christianity even if we do get married in the future. With the pressure from the churchgoers and my mind just constantly fighting the very idea of Christianity, it was too tough. We were 24 then, was it too soon to break up just because of the future? Some say it was stupid, some say it was better to break it off early (although I'm not sure 4 years fit the criteria for early) and not to waste each other's time anymore (which was the thought of that time), hence the decision to mutually end things right after we just graduated. 

Now, here I am dating Farzainin that I met back in November/December last year in Medical. To be honest, things were great from the get-go like it was always fun to work with her and just you know, hang. The problem is, I live in Malaysia, where again religious issues will step in again whenever you date a Malay girl. The few people that I told this to pretty much gave me the same reaction haha as expected. The thing is back in June when the flirting was building up, I constantly asked myself what are you doing. Like honestly, what are you doing. I know previously I said that I would just let it happen if it happens, cause I'm not actually actively searching for any relationship. Now, it has happened, and it feels great once again, although there is that neverending crippling fact at the end of the line, what will be the endgame? Marriage would be nearly impossible unless some miracle happens. How do you decide, do you live in the moment or do you constantly plan for the future and not waste time.

Recently, I was watching the Da Vinci Code trilogy on Netflix, and one quote from Angels and Demons stuck with me for the longest time. It was when Camerlengo (btw, SUPER HYPED when I saw it was Ewan McGregor) was asking Prof Langdon if he believed in God, and I have to say he gave the most classy and perfect answer there it: "Faith is a gift I have yet to receive". From all my discussions with Hon, David, Abby, Cindy, about the whole idea and concept of Christianity, I realize the main difference between all of us was just faith. The fact that I did not have faith in religion and the whole basis of it is why the answers to most of my questions were not enough for me. It's the lack of faith. The whole concept of join us or rot in hell still seems so medieval to me. Basically, it's an exclusive club that you sell your rights to believe in anything else if you think about it.

I think I'm gonna stop here for now before I offend people based on my views on religion lol. Don't get me wrong, all religions are good in their own ways, they act as a moral compass for their believers (the majority of the believers anyway, excluding the extreme ones). Like I definitely think it helps as emotional support during hard times, like I prayed prior to competitions when I get severe stomach aches and all, there is this sort of calmness that soothes over your body. Just please, stop trying to convert people or force views on other people. It just gets really really annoying. No doubt I have a sort of love-hate relationship with religion in general right now. 

Whatever it is, don't ever say that religion is what unites people, cause from my short 26 years of life experience, wars, terror attacks, and acts of violence have been committed under the name of religion, no matter which. Even in my relationships, religion didn't exactly have a good track record. Then again, could just be me always looking for trouble LOL. But hey, I said it before, if it happens, it happens.

Honestly, though, I hate myself for my thoughts. For the past few years, I think I hated my mind even more. Was it really that important to do the right thing, the so-called mature thing? Wouldn't it have been better for me if I thought less about this serious stuff and just live in the moment and enjoy everything while it lasted? What's with my mind being so serious and so realistic that I have to get everything sort of planned out for what's best for everybody. In my mind, it may be the best for everyone but is it really? I might be unconsciously the most selfish person. I don't even get my logic anymore and I'm just bang on ranting at this point.

 Tomorrow will be our first date? Well, officially the first date excluding all the Zoom ones haha and we shall see how it goes. Meanwhile, just stay safe everyone and I'll see ya guys real soon :)

Sudden relocation. Again.

Random Coffee shot from my gallery just to set the picture for this post xD

I think I can change the blog's name to the life of being a KKM Kuli. As the previous post mentioned, I had just finished ortho and started the compulsory 2 weeks tagging in Surgical posting (my 5th posting). 2 weeks actually passed by pretty fast tbh as day by day wasn't too eventful thank goodness. Surgical posting right now is like half on a holiday mood as the patient load has reduced tremendously no thanks to covid. Therefore, if we were situated in ED, that was probably as close to an acute appendicitis case as we got. Cause our gahmen had this idea to outsource cases to private hospitals, at a ceiling rate of  RM45k per patient, where if the bill had exceeded the limit, the patient will be sent back to HSAS for any continuation of care. Now with the instability of our economy, where did they get the money for this I truly have no clue. Just imagine if 10 patients per day were to be outsourced, that's RM450k per day (enough to buy a landed property easily). Honestly felt it was not a very sustainable way of doing things in the long run definitely.

ANYWAY, rare for me to straight up start with a rant LOL. The main point is, near the end of my tagging days, there started to have rumours that HSB was taking back HOs now, to help in the fight with Covid (my guess is because there are just way too many MOs quitting due to being overworked). KKM even recruited first-year HOs to start working in Covid. Imagine these peeps who have no experience taking ABGs or setting lines, currently have to wear full PPE and do all that, with that double glove summore. The learning curve is definitely high for them, good or bad I leave it up to them to decide lol. Sure enough, the first wave of relocations hit where Shah Alam housemen are chosen to go to UKM hospital to help with Covid cases for a month, along with a brand new logbook for every rotation. Apparently all rotations,2 months will be spent in Covid while 2 months doing the normal ones. The new logbooks have honestly very little to them, and hence limits exposure to all HOs. This all just makes Malaysia's future healthcare quality looking quite bleak. After HSAS, Ampang HOs got called to go UPM, and less than a week later, so did some HSB HOs, including yours truly. Ampang ones actually had quite some time to prepare while HSB HOs got called to arms on very short notice as usual. The announcement came, next day swab, then next day go work. Simple as that. Meanwhile, other HSB HOs were getting called back to go to HSB.

The time left in HSAS was honestly so limited and everything was so sudden I didn't actually have time to say goodbye and all. Quite of a shocker really. Plus my schedule was changed last minute due to the severe lack of  HOs now that everyone has left for Covid rotation and sudden quarantine. Last minute found whoever I could and just snapped a few photos is a bit sad that I don't get to :/ I was actually looking forward to helping out in the covid war tbh, but just the short time wasn't enough to say goodbye was kinda sad. Luckily, Far, Chai and Aliaa threw like a small going away party for me, was really touching and like a nice last goodbye for now kinda way, it was really nice.

So now let's focus on my life here in HPUPM. To be honest it has been super great for these past month working here. First of all, we started off without any orientation at all, and like shoved into Covid AM rotation straight. Luckily followed a bit of covid rounds before last time so have a bit of experience for board rounds. Weird thing for HPUPM is almost everything is put onto Google Drive instead of their in house system. Now I don't know if things were done this way before we came in or is this just for the sake of Covid patients. There are pros and cons to this as it's easily accessible on your phone especially during bedside rounds, but.. when someone accidentally screws the whole document (which actually happened and everything that was done during the AM rounds were completely undone haha), yeah can be disastrous. So the whole sequence is doing board rounds first while we actively update the SN in the wards to wean down oxygen so that we can assess right after the board rounds. Quite efficient really, things get updated almost right away through Whatsapp, no longer having like SN waiting for doctor's final entry until 12pm plus, then only they will be too busy doing their SN report to care about you (Ahem KKM Ahem xD). Then, we will don in with our specialist and MO, taking SpO2 of each patient and assessing the patient clinically.

Donning in is like exciting the first time then it gets faster after each time. As soon as you are in there, you can't feel anything, like what air cond. Feeling the sweat drip bead by bead (Mostly on your arms and back). Also, taking ABG or venupuncture through double gloves is actually quite challenging. When you are fully donned in, you feel your heartbeat more than ever, then it starts to get super confusing like am I feeling my own pulse or the patient's pulse. However, this time I have definitely taken more brachial ABGs than I ever had in my life. It was just easier to feel and take (plus can use green needle HAHA). 

I was put in the same group as 4 Ampang HOs, Venice, Syukri, Shiqin, and Alya, all 5th posters (except for Shiqin). Initially felt slightly alienated, which can't be helped because I was the only one not from Ampang. As soon as they start talking about drs in Ampang it just feels like a big question mark for me huhu. But sooner or later, we all got together quite nicely and turned out to be a very efficient and nice month working together, cleaning up other people's poo poo. Not to mention the night shifts where initially was super chill. No admissions, just waiting to take cm bloods at 4am. MOs would suggest us to use the projector to literally play movies. The vibe was really super chill and feels damn good. Soon we even started bringing food at night for like pot luck, was really a very different experience, reminiscence of UM Paeds cardio/respi ward night shifts HAHAHA. Anyway, the shift system works like SN shift, except it was way chiller. We worked basically 24H every 5 days. It goes PM shift, AM shift, ON shift, PN and then off. Even my dad was like why are you constantly home, do you not have to work HAHAHA. 

Honestly with this shift system, I actually spent more time gaming than ever (until my laptop battery also died, not sure if game or work related or just plain died from usage alone). I know I should have used this time to study more for my MRCP.... but what to do I'm just lazy. Envious over people like Denzel or Vivian who have a clear goal in mind for their future, and are working hard to strive towards it. Am I just not mixing with the right people or is just generally me being lazy and unmotivated lol. Can't really put the blame on other people lol ma bad, mainly just me being unmotivated then xD Keep telling myself to set a goal by the end of HOship but guess that ain't going anywhere also..

Anyway, heading back to HSB now for the remainder of my HOship I presume. Yes, it is still a covid hospital so nothing has changed. Things will be different for my surgical posting and my 6th posting (presumably ED I guess). Covid is coming down in Selangor now that the vaccination rates have gone up, so that's a good sign that we are slowly shifting towards the hybrid hospital status, although now I feel like HSB is definitely going to be the last on the list to be reconsidered lul. Can't wait to meet all the rest of the old HSB gang woohoo!!

Lastly, updates on ma personal life, Far and I are still keeping in touch regularly with intermittent online show dates haha. Taking it slowly and just happy with what is going on around my life for now (although better if we get to see each other, but guess this will have to do for now, see how things go step by step then hehe. Here are the usual photos to close off the post hehe :))

Final day of working post night in HSAS with ma fav registrars and specialist in that 2 weeks plus I'm there HAHA Dr Chieng, Dr Ooi, and Miss Jolynn

 

Fully donned in with covid blood casually selfie-ing xD

Glimpse of how the covid ward looked like

Place where I regularly donned out with my super sweaty scrubs by then

Guess who I met!!! NADIAHHHHH from UMMMMM been almost a year jeez hahaha

Selfie with le teamm

More selfieess

Ma great team in HPUPM. Was a blast working with these peeps

First dine in after so long with these 2 Tricia and Tham, just to catch up after working in covid after a while

Right before I was about to leave, GUESS WHO CAME INTO MY GROUPPP, nice to see u again Athirahhh :))

Owh yeah, choir peeps sent this lovely thing to celebrate my birthday along with like 4 pastries. How do u not love these people <3

:)) Excuse my MCO hair haha

New breath of life, new posting, same old life

 Hello peeps, here again for the update for the end of my 4th posting. As some of you may notice, I have a slightly newer blog skin (although it literally is just one of the templates that I saw in the blog, not completely satisfied with it to be honest, it takes quite a lot of searching to actually find what I want, since I don't have a complete picture in mind?), so this will do for now haha. It is officially the end of my ortho posting today!! Am actually surprised that I have enjoyed myself quite a bit over these 4 months of ortho. I mean back in PMC, ortho was really never my favourite subject, plus it's just like not really focused on that much as well? Looking back there were definitely a few MOs that stood out in helping me throughout this posting. We will slowly go into it down there I guess.

As mentioned in my previous post I guess, I was dreading going into ortho for the simple reason of I don't like orthopaedics. Bones just really aren't my thing and I couldn't care less about ligaments and shizz. These 4 months slowly changed me tho, thanks to the friendly MAs, MOs, and some fellow HOs who are nothing short of great orthopods. Clerking for Ortho is much simpler, majority of your patients come in with very little prior medical illness, which makes your life in the ward much easier. Normally patients come in due to MVAs, weird mishaps in the middle of the friggin night (which generally begs the question like wtf were u doing at this time of the night), workplace injuries (can be freaking nasty), or infection cases. Now the trauma cases, finding the fracture honestly is fun. Scanning the Xray just to detect any abnormality that can be a cause of tenderness. 

Trailing back to like tagging week of orthopaedics was just super culture shock tho. First of all the rounds were like lightspeed, especially coming from medical where the rounds are like 2-3 hours long LOL. Second day of life memang kena from MO and Specialist, lol what to do when the entire team was all taggers and we had no idea how orthopaedics even worked that time. You have to focus only on a few things, Biodata, Dx, Post op day what, Culture, Abx, dressing, Blood ix. Done. Yeah, sooner or later we got the gist of it. DXT all, supposedly it's expected for HOs to deal with it on their own. Great if ur a senior poster, if you're a first poster? Hmm.. It's tough.  Think my first memorable ED experience was with Shah and Dr Izzah where she basically taught a lot about primary survey and the primary ossification centres of a child. Think I will always remember clerking a supracondylar fracture of humerus for my first case in ortho haha. Let's not forget how horrible my offtag assessment was with Dr Rushda haha. Everyone else listening knew the answers except me and miraculously I still passed xD

Slowly as the weeks go by, then MOs start trusting you, and they let you do more procedures as well (up to proactivity really, which I have to say, not my strongest suit, hence won't say I did a full package). Ortho generally has a really chill vibe compared to the other postings. You're only really busy during the day preparing for rounds. After morning rounds, if nothing happens, it's just free time, where you pray for your patients to be stable until you go home haha. Few MOs that I really enjoyed working with was definitely Dr Srinivas who is like among the nicest MOs that don't leave you out to dry in front of the bosses, Dr Kalai, Dr Zufar, just to name a few. Like they are super committed to the job without being a total arse when troubles arise lol, definitely fun to work with. Will be happy leaving Ortho knowing I hit it off with a few MOs here as well. Regarding specialists, generally there were only 5 in the beginning (Miss Nura (HOD), Miss Amirah, Mr Robin, Mr Hijaz, and Mr Azrin). Ortho was special as it was split into two teams. I was in Miss Nura, Miss Amirah's team for 3 months and it was really nice working there because the rounds I felt are much more complete. It's like a nice pace to get things done as well. Generally the specialists were all like amazing. Miss Nura and Miss Amirah were fun as they listened to what you had to say and had mini teaching lessons as well. Mr Robin was this cool guy graduated from Manipal Melaka that had mini teaching sessions on weekends if he is oncall as well, and in the end added a lot of cool insights into the hosuemen CMEs. Mr Hijaz was cool as well as I rounded with him for peri rounds a lot so the management also makes sense, plus it's more relaxing to be with him in the OT definitely. Mr Azrin is the efficient guy who works at godspeed inside the OT. He is terribly talented, which makes it extra stressful to work with in the OT as well. Definitely. Overall, they were all amazing in their own ways la really. Speaking of OT, this is probably an ortho exclusive. The implant reps buy food and drinks for the surgeons during ELOT times, so hello to free food and drinks (which tbh are often cold by the time the HOs get to it HAHA). Quite an interesting time as well. 

Coming down a level, the HOs in Ortho are a mixed bunch. Some are amazing to work with, some are just like FML. I mean obviously I'm not gonna name names but gosh its so annoying to work with some. Luckily Preston, Tricia was pretty much always with me for every oncall so I know like it's not going to be a terrible night. Knowing you have a full team to back you up day and night always feels better. Can't say the same for the day shifts tho, can be brutal sometimes picking up other people's shit. Got back the same posting as Far again, quite excited actually since we worked and were pretty close back in medical as well, so at least that's like one less thing to worry about when I started Ortho. Sadly, only managed to work with her twice for nights, once during my first night and the second we got ED together hehe. Think we grew increasingly close throughout the posting so.. let's just see where this takes us then. 😜 I mean things are great the way they are now, even though dating is pretty much impossible due to the horrible MCO... Think that was a slight hint into my own personal life, probably too early to comment on anything for now hahaha we'll see xD. Day by day, day by day :) All I can say is it's fun hanging out with her :)

On the other hand,  Covid is definitely more rampant now compared to how it was when i last blogged. We have broken the 10k daily cases barrier and it's getting absolutely ridiculous now.  Hospitals are overcrowded, EDs are overflowing, frontliners are getting tired, resigning one by one. It's worse than before and our government honestly isn't doing much to rectify the whole situation tbh. So many guidelines and various versions of MCO, it doesn't even help at all. Covid has honestly become a HAP among HSAS and other Selangor hospitals because with the new variants, the old guidelines don't function that well anymore, plus no one is doing anything to change it. Vaccines are rolled out at an alarming pace sure but are we really winning the vaccine vs virus war. Seems, like the vaccines are still getting outpaced. Nevertheless, the vaccines do have protective properties so that's the hope that we can count on for now I guess.

Back to my life update, 5th posting will be surgery even though I requested for ED. At least I don't have to deal with the trouble of being a 6th poster in surgical. When you are a 6th poster everyone just has very different expectations of you. But yeah, definitely surgical first will be a good step although a lot of my friends are on their way to ED right now. At least Nabila will be in Surg with me hehe. I haven't been touching anything surgical for a long time, and honestly the only thing I remember now is Appendicitis, even that it's like surface knowledge. Hopefully I won't be that dumb guy huhu. Will update back mid posting if there is the need for it. For now, just want to enjoy whatever's left of my AL before the dreaded tagging periods urgh.

As usual, here are some pictures for now to leave behind! :) See y'all real soon hehe :)) Stay safe, and I mean it.

One of the many times that I have to fully don a PPE. The number of patients who got nCOV PCR positive in Ortho ward was just super alarming. Had to don way more times than when I was actually in medical lol

Attending covid positive patient with Sarah and Atiqah lol difficult ass branula.

My number for 2nd dose of Pfizer Vaccination!!

Owh yeah completely forgot about this above. So one day I was working and I got a call from the security team telling me my car got rammed in the parking lot. I was like, wtf my car was well parked in a spot. Came down to see this. The impact was so big that my car literally shifted to the right. Yeah turns out a SN was arguing with her fiance and drove off and lost control and hit my car.... She paid for everything, but still.. not fun.

With one of my favourite SN from Medical where we both ran into a bit of trouble with Dr Guna huhu.. but never the less fun!! :DD

The 4 peeps leaving Ortho together (Wani is not in this pic and so is Ainuddin)

Had so many night calls with Tricia, mostly in ED, helped me with bloods too. Super functional HO and friend hehe. See you in 6th posting la (doubt I will go Anaes tho). Shoutout to Pres also, didn't manage to get a photo with le busy HO leader xD 2 of my complaint sponges hahaha

Shahhhhh, first oncall ED with him memang all T&S he will happily do. Definitely a great friend throughout the posting hehe have fun in paeds!

With le amazing Ms Amirah and Mr Robin hehe :D

😁😉

(Probably take a better one next time without boss rushing in LOL)

Till next time peeps :D