Seems like everyone is doing a wrapped, starting from Spotify, then Steam, then... I can't list anymore examples HAHAHA. So hi my dustbunny readers, although I bet no one else is actually reading this right now, but whatever, I feel like I owe myself to wrap up this blog this year since I kind of feel like alot of things has happened this year. Come to think of it, I think it is unlikely I will wrap up back from January. I think I've been summarizing everytime I wrote in my blog this year anyway so this should probably cover from August onwards to now, which now that I type it out, feels like a long 4 months to cover and post tonight (seeing its already 7.49pm now and I'm actually oncall LOLOL) Hence I'll be focusing only on a certain few aspects la hor (doesn't really matter anyway since I bet no one is reading this anymore anyways hehe)
Rewind back to early October, I was inserting an Implanon for a patient when my phone was buzzing like crazy, which only meant one thing, the list for placements are out. Calmly cleaning up my stuff, I washed my hands as I thought hard, where could it be, would I be disappointed or excited if I got East Malaysia.. Truth is, even I don't know. So, I keyed in my IC number into the website, and honestly my gut feeling was right, Sarawak here I come. Asked in the group, pretty much almost everyone got Sarawak as well, so I guess the flight there won't be so alone I guess. The next few weeks after the announcement was like a ticking time bomb ready to go off, just that now the timer has finally surfaced. Especially for my relationship world, things were about to dive down really fast. As Dr Strange mentioned, we are in the end game now... So to sum up the whole Sarawak placement huuhaa in October, appeals were made and the arrangement for the final oncall month was made. We don't lapor diri until the 31st of October anyway (great date btw), so we still had plenty of time to fit our oncall quota for the month. The month was pretty much filled with goodbyes and trying to not stir shit up in ur last month honestly. Meanwhile, the appeal process of the placement is honestly quite shit, we appealed like 2-3 days right after the link was posted and we just had to sit and wait.. until like 1 week prior to lapor diri, can u believe how last minute it was? LOL let's not forget the OTHER last minute thing HSB / KKM put us up to.
It's been 2 months now and I still don't know who to blame for this situation. OK let's get abit more detailed for this. So, after knowing we are going to Sarawak, the rest of them are basically desparate to find ANY other alternative than Sarawak, mainly Ain (cuz she is married duh), and Beckie cause let's face it she is WAY more of a city kid than I ever will be (ironic that I'm the Subang kid). So names were sent to Hospital Tanjung Karang, and also Dr Chopra basically helped us by asking us to put our names for H. Cyberjaya which was opening soon and Dr Hana was going over as the new HOD (who I really like as well). I didn't give my name to HTK because let's be fair it's super far lol. It's not Sarawak far but still, 1 hour plus drive to and fro everyday? (excluding jam mind you), no thank you... if i have to rent around there then might as well go to Sarawak? I dunno la I feel la HAHA. I did sign up for the cyber one tho cause I felt it would be pretty cool to go to a new hospital and be a pioneer.
**Yeah, by the time I managed to see patients, it was already the new year, hence I actually gave up on this for a while, and here I am finishing it up after a week into the new year LUL
So yes, back to the Cyber story hehe. 2 weeks before our report date, our specialist shared a list in the group chat, which basically was "pencalonan" for H. Cyberjaya, and in O&G, all of us floaters' names were in. At that point loads of congratulations messages were floating around in the group, but I just had a bad hunch about that pdf letter, due to word pencalonan... The other floaters were basically happy already and I'm still the only person being emotionless. First of all, I didn't know what to feel about it as to be honest at that point my mind was already made up to go to Sarawak, and god knows which part of Sarawak I'll end up in, but as my seniors said, I might learn alot there. If I were really to end up in Cyberjaya, the main clientele over there would definitely be mainly VIPs (Dahlah is O&G, naturally they would be expecting the best of the best of care haha). Plus I was still quite doubtful of my skills back then. Working in O&G for 7 months, surprisingly I didn't get that many 2nd calls (which was labour room) and most of it was 1st,3rd and 4th calls (Ward, IOL, referral), with the ocassional 5th call. (Gynae). Therefore, I had like a mini fear of being called to attend labours, cause I wasn't confident with my perineal repairs as well. Thirdly, I was on a date when I received that news, and I did share it to Far, I couldn't really read her emotions at that point but it did seem she was happier than me.
Hence, after the news was announced, work went on as usual, and we were still waiting on further updates or a confirmed letter from KKM. Going into the last week of October, still no news. at that point, most of us have already started our week-long AL to prepare to come to Sarawak (Or Cyberjaya). Up until Thursday, we contacted KKm and JKNS again, the final consensus was no one knew what was going on. Not KKM, not JKNS. After seeing on Instagram that my friend in NS had gotten the letter to go to H. Cyberjaya, I concluded that we didn't got in in the end. It was all just a big empty wish. Shared the news in the group and all of us finally got our shit together and bought the tickets and hotels in Kuching. It was so stressful to pack everything in 2 days and also having to plan a nice farewell dinner with Far. Because this wasn't just farewell, it was the end of the verbal contract, it was the end of us as an exclusive couple. It sucked. It really awfully sucked. After having a bit of heated arguments at home, i had to reschedule my final day's date with Far so many times and finally put it to a split date. One in the afternoon and one after dinner just to maximize the remaining time that I had with her. Being a guy, I could pack really fast as to be honest there wasn't much to pack. I was about 95% packed going into Friday afternoon.
28/10/2022. The bittersweet ass date. We started by having her come over to Subang and I drove both of us down to Mutiara Damansara for Oiso :) Knew how much she liked that place and it seemed right that we just had that for our lunch date. The nice thing was Harvey Norman was nearby hence I could sneak there to print out some photos that I needed for our scrapbook together. This past year plus was honestly great having her around for moral support, and just getting each other through tough times and sharing the happy moments. The scrapbook was meant to be my final gift to her as a thank you momento for being forced to agree to be in our controversial contract relationship. However, it wasn't smooth as...
1. I procrastinated alot near October, partially was just being in denial that I didn't want it to end (although this whole thing was my idea in the first place, hypocrit much?).
2. The photo printing process wasn't that smooth. First of all, Harvey Norman (HN from now on), decided that 60 cents is too cheap for too long and recently raised their price to 1.50 per 4R picture (which threw away the original amount of photos that I wanted to print, and trust me, there were alot). Secondly, when I went for the first time to print in HN Ikano, I didn't know that they only could print JPEG photos, so all iphone pictures and my Samsung photos weren't available as choices to be printed. THIRDLY, which probably was the most infuriating one, the printer at HN Ikano had issues. I told Far while we were at Oiso that I had to go to the toilet while I went to HN to process the photos. Because of the printer it took so long for the photos to come out. Then, when they did the first time around, the colours were quite badly distorted, with one particular photo being an issue. They did ask me to check through the rest of it, but as I sneaked out, I didn't manage to really check through it, only after did I realize there were some where the edges had really badly distorted colours, which was a real mood killer. Obviously it meant I didn't have enough photos to complete the scrapbook before 29th (which was the date of my flight)
Yeah so mainly these 2 reasons. More the photos to be fair. Hence I had to make an extra plan in Sarawak to get the scrapbook done. Back to the date, we finished our lunches (she had the Korean spicy soup while I had the cold noodles), and she accompanied me back to Sungai Buloh to pass up my oncall claim (much important) and then we headed back for now. I finished what's left of my packing and had dinner with my parents, the final one before my flight. We agreed to watch Black Adam as our midnight movie (cause let's be honest nothing else interesting was on the cinema list). She came around 11pm while I brought along the chips that we bought in the afternoon. Back to Sunway Pyramid, where we had our first date, and now we end it off in the Lion shopping centre again :) I insisted on the couple seat and I was so happy that we got it. We had the centre couch, where there were 2 other couples on either end of the row. Right as the movie started the couple on the right left abruptly which was super weird, but meant more privacy for us. It was the last night. I couldn't care less on JAKIM or whatever asshole religious cop. I held her tight in my arms halfway into the movie and she melted into my arms. It was nice, warm, peaceful, and melancholy, all mixed into one pot. Calming was the ultimate word to be used to describe how it was. Time like this I just wished for the clock to just freeze, everyone stop moving and just stay. I'm gonna miss this, I'm gonna miss this. Sure it's a once in a lifetime thing, cause this will never happen ever again, me with a Malay girl in public, dating, , just really enjoying each other's presence, especially Far.. I dunno. It's just special with her. Words can't describe really. At that point, you just kinda wished for the movie to last for a year. So that we never have to leave that couch, that moment. Honestly, these all are all abit hardbreaking to type back because I still wish that I could rewind time, and the current situation I'm in? Don't feel very healthy let's put it this way.
Needless to say, the movie did have to end, and we were one of the few last ones to leave. We headed straight to her car, didn't really stop by anywhere else. That's when I showed her the box of brick flower that I brought along. We wanted to find somewhere to hang out first and build that flower together. So we drove, closer and closer we got to my home... I suggested Family Mart as well, but who knew their 24H was just a big ass scam. So lastly we headed back out to find a mamak in SS15 or something. Was still quite crowded, too crowded for our liking so in the end we settled to being in the car. Parked near the square, with good enough lighting opposite a lamppost just to have nice vision and not to get into any shitty trouble with the asshole authorities. Then, we slowly made our flower :) Piece by piece I handed it to her because I wanted her to build it, and yes we slowly built it wonderfully. The final product was as lovely as I thought it would be. After that, it was just moments of thanking each other, and the never-ending embrace. The embrace spoke volumes, more than any word can carry. I felt her tears slowly seeping onto my shirt, not that I give a damn at all. I wanted to cry but guess who was too emotionally blocked. I felt so sad. I didn't wanna go. Yet my damn brain decided that crying was bad. I just held her in my arms. Savouring the seconds that pass, knowing I have to board a plane real soon, and that was it... We talked and hugged and talked and hugged. I wasn't ready... so we changed a place to really near home, (a street right in front of home) and killed the engine and just took the momemnt just for the two of us, filling in the last parts of our memories together. A question was popped and it will be something I'm sure we will both remember for the rest of our lives. Won't disclose it here. It was then time. I had to go now.. Had to wake up in a few hours already... With a very HEAVY ASS HEART, I took her gift in my hands, one last hug.. and I was out of her car, for the last time I guess...
Next few hours were hard. I updated her of every step in the airport, even after waving goodbye to my mum and sister who graciously took their time to send me to the airport hehe :)) I miss my family as well, the nice thing to be able to rant whenever or just simply check on whatever they're doing. I mean most of the time I'm actually in my room anyway playing games, just u know, definitely nice to know that I can kacau anytime hehe. Sounds selfish I know. Sis bought McFlurry at the hidden McD spot now lol and then I went off to go through security. Each step seemed harder to go, but I had to move on... When I finally boarded the plane, dear lord. The tears came. It seems like I'm only capable of crying in public transport places. Thank goodness the seat beside me was empty. I pulled my new Tommy Hilfiger cap further down to hide my face, and I kept on sobbing. 1 year plus of close relationship, haiz.. gone. I know it's stupid to complain. People who read this post are definitely thinking that it's stupid that I'm even crying or something since this was completely my own doing, like why feel sorry for this idiot? Meh, thats why I mainly do it here. Cause I know no one else is going to read this sad piece of crap. Yeah, managed to get through the flight and landed in Kuching, and headed straight to my hotel, meeting up with Shing Li there. Got some sojus to kinda mellow through the night and that was the chill part of it I guess.
Next few days were just basically chilling around Kuching, until the report day in JKNS. Went there along with a few others who were staying nearby. To be honest at that point, I didn't evne know if I wanted to go to a hospital or a KK. Sarawak is just so big, you really don't know where you might end up lol. Lundu is where I know Chris is so that's like a plus if I get to be put there. Lastly, they did this weird one by one announcement like in the hunger games, where they announced your name first, and then told where were you headed. Obviously with my surname being Y, I had to wait quite a while, in the meantime listening to where my friends all ended up, Nadia got PJ HUS, Shing got Sri Aman, Syabana ended up with SGH after some hard work xD, Wong ended up in SGH as well (no surprises there), I saw someone filming themselves getting the news and I was like hey, why don't I do that, must be fun HAHA. Completely did not regret doing it HAHAA.
MC: Yeo Chun Huay.
*Raises Hand*
MC: Hospital Simunjan
*Obvious blur ass face*
It's near Samarahan
*More blurness*
*Just nod and look away* Hahahahaha
Yeah immediately whipped out my google Maps to find out where is it. Was like hey, it's near Kuching! Then when you put on directions, it's like 2 hours. be like eh? Not very near la HAHAHA. Too used to Semenanjung where that distance can be connected by a highway, making the trip probably ~1H? Here is bad lel. Because of the windy roads. Okay, now that I've got the place, I still don't know how I feel. Do I wanna switch with someone else? Think there was someone from Sri Aman actively asking to change place, but do I really wanna switch to somewhere further from Kuching hmm.. Lastly didn't want the blame to be on me instead of JKNS, hence decided to stick with it, although got me worried as I don't remember hearing anyone else getting this place lel. So after the name calling, we will have to go into the office where they will let you know what to expect and the contact number of the pengarah and all. I then asked how many people were going over, luckily there were 3 others, including one other who was my batch from HSB. Then the next problem was finding how to get there. Searched online that there was a bus but it reaches at 12am... like... wtf. So desperately I tried to find the other person so that we can I dunno share a Grab there? (which costs close to 200 btw). Luckily the person I found was Nasa!! He was a local that stayed around Simunjan and was planning to drive there. He agreed to pick me up and drive me there the next day!! Hehe luckily. So that part was settled. Contacted the pengarah and the next day we were on our way then. Got to know him along the way, and he was nice enough to stop at the immigration place for me to check some stuff out before heading over.
After 2 hours and some picture-taking of the route, we finally arrived :)). Met the pengarah and was told that I can stay in the quarters but it's been vacant for a whole year, so they need time to resume the electricity in it? Meanwhile, they will be putting me in a rumah transit, which is where they put the specialists whenever they come to visit. It's nice because it has a fridge, air-cond, and WIFI (OMG WIFI <3). It's a shock because I came here I had no line, no data, it's horrible. So turns out Maxis has absolutely no line here and Celcom is the true king here, and Nasa didn't tell me HAHA. FML. But yeah it's a relatively small area, with a very small town. District hospital, with only like 8 MOs? I can never get the proper number of it down tbh. When I arrived they had Dr Nora (Pengarah), Dr Putri, Dr Lim, Dr Saadah, Dr Sabrina, Dr Billy, Dr Haziq, Dr Azrul, and now me, Dr Nasa, and one more Dr Ganesh to come. Getting used to the place was not too hard. The hard part was actually the accomodation. I went to see the house that they said was allocated for us.. maigod. It had been vacant for a year and the condition clearly showed. Shit was everywhere. Literal rat and lizard poop. Everywhere. Legit lost some sleep over this because I think I was too stressed to think about how do I clean this shit. Luckily Nasa brought his brother and mother and helped me to clean it together as he was staying as well hehe. Then it all turned out to be quite good.
Looking back at this post.. it's damn long for a wrapped eh HAHAHAHAHA Okay, let's cut it at here. Fast forward to now, I'm otw home for the second time after coming here.. so.. so far so good, and I think I'm surviving so okok la hehee :))) Till next time folksss <3
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