Inactiveness is real on this blog lol. 2 posts this year only, with one of it being a ridiculous rant lol. I guess after the ranting sessions I just kinda gave up on blogging for a while, and focused alot on myself and life in general. So here for the final review of 2023 posted in 2024 (The plan was actually to complete this by the end of 2023, but Mr Procrastination punched me in the head).
It has now been a whole year passed in Simunjan, a year of leaving home to work far far away, while still being paid about the same as when I was working in Sungai Buloh, so who said people earn more working in East Malaysia? Lel. Really, it's not much of a diff at all. So in general I go home every 3-4 months just to refuel on Semenanjung food especially around Klang Valley cuz our food is like amazing, not to say I don't enjoy the food here but it gets really repetitive here. Like there are no good banan leaf rice places, no curry mee stalls, no wantan mee (saddest of em all), but you get like really nice Sarawak Laksa, Kolo Mee (which I'm slowly getting sick of, minus the vinegary one in Kuching town), Lei Cha, and ayam penyet is nice here too (probably cause we are so near to Indonesia). Alot has happened in the year I really hope I manage to list most of it down as my memory slowly starts to fade.
Starting with family, WE HAVE A NEW ADDITION IN THE FAMILYYYY, presenting Mikaela Siau my first niece and the first grandchild of my parents muahaha. Cutie looks a lot like my brother-in-law tbh haha. With her arrival, my father is actually happier la I feel, since it has been a tough few years for him with his health condition and all, but glad to see him slightly more cheerful. Got to go back and see that lil girl like when she is 2 months old, hehe clearly showed how bad I was at holding little kids, had to be educated by my sister and mother xD But its so much work to have a child tho, sometimes it makes you really think do you really want to have a child. I mean I completely understand why current couples don't want to have children / that many children. The cost of it, the work that goes into it especially that both parents are working (in this community, its like almost a must). Well, if a couple decides to have a child, both sides will need to pick up the workload for sure. Mother side will be really tired from breastfeeding and bonding with the child, and the husband will have to do the job around the house as well as taking care of the mother. It can get stressful for sure, not to mention my mum has to take care of Mikaela when the parents are working also. Fuhhh, say one thing positive about my niece and on goes to like a full rant about having kids. HAHA, cray cray. Anyway, looking forward to further annoy my niece when I'm back then wahahaha. I'm still learning to take more time to call home just to ask how my parents are but I don't know if its because I've left home for too long, sometimes feels like im too lazy to call home, like I have to find the motivation to do it. It likely is just bullshit for me being annoying and lazy, and the fact that my family won't be with me forever, so definitely have to spend as much time as possible. One of the new year things to do as well.
Secondly, career/work. Been a UD43 MO here in Simunjan for a full year now. Met some nice seniors but some already left to go to private / tertiary hospitals. Meanwhile, I'm taking little baby steps while not even sure on what exactly I want to do with my life. Started off the year being O&G Liaison officer, hence was doing quite a bit of O&G stuff. Doing Caesars with my pengarah Dr Nora on a 1/2 monthly basis. Initially is like quite gungho to do it, but after a while it's like are you sure? HAHAHA Joined alot of O&G courses through the year as well (more obs than gynae), then prepared myself and took the MEDEX exam for O&G, got a lucky Band 5 HAHA. Still remembered I burst out laughing at home when I saw the results, cause it was like super unexpected. Initially, I started my prep quite well but I think the fire fizzled out after a while, then it reignited, so it definitely wasn't fantastic. The regret was definitely not applying HLP this year because i heard that you have to be a MO at least 2 year to qualify for HLP. Eiswaren (MO O&G Serian who helped me so much for Medex as well) did tell me to just apply, but my mind was torn between really committing for O&G and leaving for NZ. O&G may be 'fun' in district hospital cause the less stress and you can just send the slightly riskier cases to a tertiary hospital. Also the fact that your SN, JM have good experience minus the bitchy attitude some hospital's labour room staff has. It's generally much more enjoyable to work here. Things can't be said with the horde of pregnant mothers in tertiary hospitals, and the stress of rounding with some malignant specialists / consultants. Just don't think I can get used to that again lol.
PLUS, also the fact that Mun Hon did kinda get in my head about going to NZ for work. So far Michelle, Jin Ji, Tia and husband have already immigrated to NZ to work there, all in the same hospital, with Denzel and wife following suit in a few months. It does have much better financial prospects for sure, not to mention cooling weather and ?nicer people. Ok maybe the nicer people part I'm not super sure, but generally working conditions testimonial seems to be better la. Just u know road to ?specialization of what, is like questionable, and the fact that tax is high, NZ might be boring, and the fact that I have to start all over again, it's all like.. are you sure you wanna go? I'm getting somewhat adequate training here, although I myself not really putting in full effort to improve myself pun, cause I'm a lazy bugger. It will take some money and some commitment to move over for sure. My point was thinking that I'm already far from home but getting paid the same when I was in HSB, might as well I go to NZ since there is nothing much holding me here anyway. Decisions, decisions, decisions....
Life is never easy to plan. Whatever we may have planned before may not even work out in the end. Which comes to the last update, relationship wise. Officially I'm single, keen to get back in the game? Honestly I don't know what am I doing in life. Not finding anyone in this small area, but I still have been keeping in touch with Far all these while, with on and off communication downtimes in between. Thing was abit of an up and down in between. We went out once near CNY, and the feeling was really awks I felt, cause everyone was trying to control themselves not to cross the line. Then, the next time we met in JB was definitely better. Things were more relaxed, I went to her place and just hung out and watched that MH17 documentary with her, tried her cooking haha, was definitely a much better experience. Then it was just on-and-off communication until somehow I managed to convince her to come to Kuching to find me hahaha, secretly. Of course, we couldn't tell anybody about it cause it was hard to explain to everyone else. It's abit on the taboo side. It was a very fun 3 days (Fri-Sun), like brought her around Kuching, Bau and then Simunjan for a while as well. Started off being more reserved, but soon it warmed up, and i think things started kicking off from there as well. Lots of good memories were made hehe. I started planning to go meet her in a return trip to JB, which eventually happened in Nov which escalated things abit further. We explored whatever there is to explore in JB including a city park which was quite fun, went to a hill expecting a good hike but it was actually closed to public so we caught The Marvels instead which was subpar at best. Although to be honest we hardly went anywhere really interesting, most of the time was spent together, so that was the most important, just us hanging out everywhere hehe. It was our second time in JB together technically, and there really isn't that much to do in JB tbh. It was a short 3-4 days trip and we honestly thought it would be the last trip we would do together because she had quit KKM and was going to move back to KL.. so she was doing locum around JB.
Hearing that she quit and was doing locum, to be honest, it didn't seem too bad of an idea, like the money was quite okay, but I guess the rate kinda differs when ur in JB and when ur in KL. In KL the rate kinda feels like its static, like its not that worth it la. Here in Kuching I dunno Im not sure the rate is better or not, but its like 2 hours from where I live, so the cost likely will outweigh whatever I earn, not counting the mileage of the car.
Sidetracked. HAHA ok yeah we thought it would be our last trip, but it turns out she was moving back in January instead, so I tried to cramp another trip in before going back and we managed to do it in January, where we did a challenge-filled trip to KK. Things started off abit bumpy because Air Asia decided to cancel BOTH my flights like are ye freakin kidding me, giving me the next flight which was the next morning mind you. Like do you not have any regard to people's plans like hotel booking and stuff, the worse part is you can't actually claim anything from them as they give you these free flight changes, which was quite limited as I have to take into account the airport is 2 HOURS away from Simunjan, which makes a lot of their flights inaccessible. So I had no choice but to let her stay for a night on her own cause there was literally no way around it. Booked our hotel and all literally one day before all that shit happened as well. Just the biggest annoyance ever.
Secondly, the weather while we were there wasn't the best to be honest. I did try my best to bring her up to Kundasang to catch a glimpse of Mount Kinabalu cuz that's like the most important thing to see imo. While we were there, believe it or not we didn't even make it to the sunset bar (not like I was going to let her drink or anything) but its like u know, one of the highlights of going KK, and seemingly she spent so much money to go to KK I feel like I didn't do the best work of bringing her around. Few regrets la, first thing was the sunset bar, then second thing was after bringing her up to Kundasang, walao cloudy as shit. Went to DESA farm and wanted to recreate the photo which I took few years ago when I went with Mean and Hon, but walao, reach there like gonna rain like that (which it actually did, pretty hard I might add. It was kinda cute that she couldn't stand the cow smells HAHAHA, but she did enjoy the gelato which Im happy hehe.. We saw some cows from afar, took some photos and then left. Initially wanted to go to the alpaca farm but after re-reading the reviews macam hmmm, nah. So we scoured around Kundasang and the area to see where else we can go and just chill. We ended up going to some rabbit ass farm HAHAA. I mean it was fun to go and take some pictures, but it was like scam weih HAHAHA. Basically there is a package for all 4 "spots" compared to just the rabbit park, is only like a few ringgit diff. After taking the whole "package", basically the one that is most worth it is the rabbit one only. One of it is like SKY garden and to be honest you could get in without paying for it LOL. The other one is a "cemetery" for the cats, rabbits in the place that passed HAHA, and then one of it is like a cat sanctuary, im not keen on getting mawled by cats so we just watched from outside. Rabbits were cute tho hehe. After that we left and had to rest abit at KK park cause guess who was too tired. Tried Sinalau Bakas (to realize that wild boars were pretty much non existent anymore, so they replaced it with normal pork, obviously I ate this alone.) and went to buy tickets for the islands the next morning.
I'm not sure as to why the island trip didn't feel as satisfying as it did the last time I went. 5 years kinda feel like alot of difference. We got the snorkelling masks as part of the "package", but was so disappointed when one of it was leaky the entire time, so the hope to like snorkel together and see things together was like poofed. Plus, for some reason there really weren't that many fishes, well definitely less than what I remember last time. Obviously, it felt like a letdown, also the fact that she wanted to go seawalking at first, but didn't know these people only dealt in cash so I couldn't sign us up. ALSO, not long after we reached the second island (we went to Manukan and Mamuntik), it started raining, harder and harder. Like we had to find shelter at the jetty area cause it was just madness. We did consider to continue snorkelling after that or just head back, lastly we decided to head back to get some food cause it was getting cold. Another way the weather FUCKED IT ALL UP haha. On the plus side, I managed to get her to try Sanna Mee which was a big YAY!! Glad she liked it haha the soup is always delish and especially during a rainy day is always a big big plus. Those were just some of the experiences we had there, other than that some first memories were unlocked so was definitely a big plus, just wish I could have been a better condition cause I was always tired the entire trip. Like it was so hard to rest my body properly I don't even know why. I was getting cramps and being tired. like why. WHYYY. Sure driving postcall to catch a flight at 6am in Kch was not great to start it off. Swear I thought I was dying or something with this chronic tiredness z, affected my trip by quite a bit tbh.
Think thats all that is caught up to date kot, this post was supposed to be posted way earlier but guess who managed to screw it up all the way till March. To be honest could be posted a heck a lot earlier but February was like a very bittersweet month. Started off quite well but then was so sick and tired of being in general ward (till April mind you). Like the patients, the staff, it gets so tiring. I seriously wonder how come I wanted to be a medical specialist preivously. Working now closely with the physicians in Serian, Im like no way im gonna be a physician. Maybe being an MO in O&G for 9 months completely changed me. Always remember back to the day we rounded with Dr Samantha into medical to see a referred patient, and there was like ongoing resuscitation or something and she turned to me like, u sure u wanna do medical? HAHAA kinda miss my O&G HSB days, where it was so comfortable working with everyone there. Anyway really stuck it together till I flew back to Selangor for CNY. Flew back early to join the reunion dinner but my aunt got TB so that was cancelled HAHA, and i was still like half fever no fever liddat. Met up with Far again and went to discover the first roadside uniqlo which was NOTHING EXCITING AT ALL HAHA. One week break was definitely more than welcomed and it was anything but enough. Came back, indirectly caused a patient's passing and got quite dejected, so thats a M&M and a half hour phone call lecture by the physician. Not great for the mental health. Have to bounce back one way or another...
I guess thats all I have to update for now, till next time hehe, I'll see if i can add some photos later. Peace out ghosts who read this blog HAHA <3
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