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Wednesday, February 24, 2016
Busy February is over!!!
So it all started on Tuesday where we were constructing the stage. Apparently someone gave an order to move the stage forward by 50cm, and that was quite a big change. After setting everything up, we just practiced on the stage like nothing. But when they pulled the seats out on Thursday, apparently the measurements were abit off so we were now violating UCD's safety rules? I mean we had to fit at least a wheelchair in between the audience seats and the stage. We kinda screwed up on that part. Oh well, at least the music team has more space than last year HAHA! So after much much discussion with some UCD staff, and 5000 remeasurements, we got a green light. It was a big relief as if we were given a red light instead, we would have to spend ALOT of time to reconstruct the stage, the lights, the sound system and all. It wouldn't have been great.
Other than that, it was quite a hectic week as I had to run full runs and then there was a drama like 2 days before M Night which I'm not gonna write here because its just too obvious and all like urgh. Worked with Andrew alot that week. It was really tiring to juggle Producer, Sketch Director and Vocal Director in one go. Like I was needed everywhere which really really irked me. I think the one I managed the poorest would be Vocal Director... Other than the soloists, I couldn't really teach the choir and made them to produce the voice I wanted. So I have to say I'm sorry for that. But looking back at the entire M Night process. I seriously doubt I could do any more than that. I cried a few times because of this, I just felt so pressured to please everyone seeing that I'm not the most senior in this production. People probably think I'm weak and all but I seriously couldn't give 2 flying fucks anymore. There was so much pressure coming from everywhere, about the performance, the publicity, the budget, etc.. It was just too much. But luckily everything was over.
This paragraph is definitely for Andrew Lee Ban Keong. Even though I treat this guy like real crap sometimes, he will still be there and I still can't believe we actually managed to go through the entire lighting for the whole show. No one else could have done what he did setting the lights to what I want and all, plus his valuable input and all. Seriously this guy deserves a medal for the stuff he has done for M night. I can only do so much for the acting team, and it was really down to his lights that made the whole show bloody fantastic. So sorry that I forgot to mention your name at the final speech. I was nervous and all, and names were flying in my mind and I just grabbed on to whomever I could see. But you know I love you bro in a no homo way. The way we worked through this, we should get along way way finer than anything else. Cheers bro :D
And then there is also Koshy, who was there emotionally for me, and did most of the background stuff for me. Although sometimes he won't be at his position, which is a fairbit annoying, I still feel that he is there for me when I need him to. So seriously thank you so much Koshy and thanks for your shoulder. The more I write, the more this whole post is going into homo region LOL.
So.. Let's bring it back to M night and the final moment where Abigail took the flower out for me. That's when I knew that kissing her (forehead) was the right thing to do. She was there for me emotionally and I could feel that she was proud of me. That was all I needed. And she looked really nice that night HAHA!! Owh well..
Conclusion wise, Kisho, Andrew and me. Without any of us MNight 2016 wouldn't have happened. Now, to go back and try to study, but gonna fail miserably haha! Cheers bois :D
Wednesday, January 6, 2016
200th post and its.... A COVER!! AFTER 5000 YEARS YAY!
Sunday, January 3, 2016
Start of 2016, not great
Im typing this for the second time cuz blogger app decides that it just wanna delete everything I wrote, thanks blogger. 😒
As the title suggests, this is most likely not going to be a happy post.. Ever since that 5 turned into a 6, I really haven't been feeling all that great.. To say the truth, I am actually quite sad, I feel sad. This depressing feeling has been in me since day 1 of 2016. I know it has only been like 1.5 days since the start of 2016, and its too early to tell that this year is going to suck. But for some reason, I feel depressed and I really just wanna break down and cry. It won't happen tho becux the tears just won't fall out long enough to that point that I still feel shitty. Been trying to smile more but obviously its just to mask my freaking sad little kid inside.
Oh you wanna know why I'm sad? Well do tell me when you find out, cuz I would really love to find out too... Is it because I spent new years eve on my own(ish) and did literally nothing? Don't think so.. NYE was never a day that I really super duper cared about anyway so it didn't really seem like it was something big. Plus, I hardly did anything after exams so the days just kinda blur by and NYE just seemed to go by just like that.. Is it because MNight is slowly creeping in? Probably.. I've been trying to stay away from this topic entire winter but it never worked. Somehow the topic just keeps creeping back into my mind. Either someone else brings it up or it just decides to give a surprise visit.. I hate this show. I really hate it. Its not my idea and truthfully everything is just so out of place that its really frustrating. I only have 2 weeks to try and make it work.. Its not my production but it will be me in the end to get judged for it. It breaks me, it angers me, it depresses me, it lowers my self esteem most of all.. I bet si ming didnt feel any of this, because the production had great value and also it was hers, hers to take pride from. I hate it so much, but I'll definitely give my best, I promise... Is it because of exams? Minor probabilities.. I've been wondering bout my MED paper and hopefully everything will pull thru.. Is it because Abby ain't by my side? Probably.. I feel alone also for some reason.. But long distance is something that I will have to work through when our relationship advances.. So I'll really try my best to make it work.. I miss her a lot already actually.. Abby, if u reading this, know that none of this is ur fault k? ☺Is it because of homesick? Probably too.. I don't really feel homesick, but when ur self esteem is so low, anything is possible.. So I really don't know, I really really don't know..
All I want right now is be hugged by someone I love so tight that all the air will be squeezed out.. And them telling me that everything will be OK.. Probably not gonna happen for a while.. I'll most kindly break down in their arms and it will definitely make me feel better.. Hopefully this feeling goes away after a week or so.. I need a break, I really need one..
All in all,
Happy new year guys
And may the odds be ever in your favour!
Stay happy guys 😀
Tuesday, December 29, 2015
2015 coming to an end bois
Haven't been updating my blog nowadays and now I have to say busy as a reason just ain't gonna be enough to cut it anymore! Sometimes, you really need these feeling to write a blog post and most of the time I just don't feel it anymore. Maybe I am just too busy playing dota, cramming for exams, or spending time with friends/gf. There is just so many things that are distracting me from writing a complete blog post. Like now for instance, I have to type this post at freaking 2am and its nearly 3am. This is the time when I have absolute alone time and these feelings just come. Right, now back to business. Blink of an eye and its already 3 semesters into medical school. Only 2 semesters left in Dublin and then everything is going to change again. Part of me is seriously wishing for time to go slower and part of me wants it to speed up. It seriously is a bittersweet thing that I can't make up my mind to how to react to it. Seeing all my seniors leave now 1 by 1, you seriously can't run away from the thought of urself leaving in a year. You tell yourself you still have a year and you urself know that 1 yar can pass by just like that. Seriously no joke. Time can play tricks with you. Lets try to look back in the year first.
Highlights would definitely include my first Malaysian Night in February where I acted as Sebastian in the Little Duyung. The response I got was tremendous and it opened some doors for me as well! The feeling of being in a production again was really great and the days leading up to it were ever so tiring but yet so magical. I would relive those moments again and again! Some would say i will feel the same with next year's M night. Can't say so tho. I am directing the M night next year but my heart is really not fully into it. I can't direct something that was just thrown to me and the whole thing was not my idea at all. I was just meant to oversee it on someone else's behalf. I'm not saying it will suck, I'm just saying its not up to my liking and hopefully everything goes smoothly when the time comes, 船到桥头自然直! I really really need some help after that m night for the heart attacks I'm going to get during that time LOLOL. After that would definitely when I got together with my gf, Abigail haha! Things are going strong and I miss her alot seriously! Hope we have a great year ahead la hehe
Thursday, November 5, 2015
Stress
I know I'm super lucky to be able to study here in Dublin, and being so far away from home. This is partially why I know I should be doing better than what I'm doing so far. Like come on, I may have taken more things than I can chew. Who knew that this semester would be so taxing with all the assessments and the dissections. Its going to be one more month before my exam arrives, and I really should get my shit together seriously. Less dota and less time wasting. Although I have to say some lecturers IMO are below par. Take the one from Disease Mechanisms, the lecturer speaks so fast and there is so much information in it that it is nearly impossible to put everything down into ur notes. Like wtf. How am I gonna do well in this module. Like what my senior said, this semester is going to be hard to study but easy to pass due to all the assessments, I will really try. Passing wouldn't be a problem i guess but passing just doesn't seem to be doing my parent's money or investment in me any justice, so I'll definitely try to get the most of my time here. On a side note, the seniors are only having 2 more months here and I'll have to wait another year till I see all of them again :( Will really miss them alot becuz so many of them will be going back and we aren't that close to the juniors these years yet to feel that close yet. Basically, there will be a hole in our lives, I will definitely miss them alot.
Well that's about it for this post, more like a rant than anything, after typing this, I do feel way better, no joke. So hopefully I will do better than! Cheers :D
Sunday, October 4, 2015
What A September.
So, now to my birthday celebration. As you guys knew, last year's birthday celebration was just quite lonely apart from my Belgrove housemates who helped me celebrate with that brilliant chocolate cake. So this year was very different as I actually knew a whole bunch of people within the last 9 years, plus I have a loving girlfriend! My birthday fell under orientation week, but luckily there wasn't much to do on that day itself. The day started with me waking up and Brendon and Kisho got me (diabetic) cupcakes. They also showed me a video from The Singaholics plus a special video by my Bali roommate Joshua xD That video was actually arranged by Abigail and them with the help from Ren Jie haha! Just read the message between Abby and Ren Jie and it was pretty hilarious xD After that, there were birthday songs from the juniors, from the Merville juniors first, then the Belgrove juniors who were right in time to start it up again LOLOL! Everything was great xD After that, nothing much went on cause I was already pretty tired that day due to the past few days... But September 4th is the city tour for the juniors and it was a really busy day xD In the end, the day ended with a Jimmy Chung dinner xD I was already suspecting why they wanted me to go so badly as I decided not to to save money, but then they said they would pay for me so I was like eh wat the heck haha! There was a birthday cake slice and everything. Reminded me so much of Alex's celebration last time haha! Everything was great :D Abby also wrote me a special letter which I won't disclose whats inside hehe :D
For now, this will be it.. but the Slieve League hike was great and I will tell more about that later, and also the S&M's first LAN experience hehe.. Until next time, love you guys and see ya real soon :D
Monday, August 17, 2015
Counting down.. till uncertainty
So for now, its gonna be goodbye and the next time I post, should be about me going back to Dubs already, love all you readers so much. Cheers! Sorry for the long long post anyway hahaha xD
Monday, July 20, 2015
July life in Malaysia
Firstly, CHAPTER 2: GOING BEYOND is officially over! Congrats to everyone involved! This was seriously harder to do than in Chapter 1 majorly because of the time that was spent on this project. There really wasnt much time put into it and when that day finally arrived, truthfully I personally felt that we were pretty unprepared. I had to prepare the emcee script the night before the concert and a lot of thing weren't set in stone yet. Real serious last minute skillz. For that I really need to apologize because I personally thought there was a big difference between Friday and Saturday's show. Saturday's one was much more well prepared and I enjoyed it more along with Ren Jie's surprise to us haha! We had a full house on Saturday! There was my family, Kisho and Brendon, Alex and Rachel! Ahhh soo many people haha! Good thing is now all that is over, we can focus on our Bali competition which is only a few weeks away! Yesterday Jia Zheng came into our practice session and taught us really valuable stuff and its pretty legit so hopefully we get to sing better from this haha!! Can't wait till Bali actually :)
So updates on my Dublin life. I actually have found a home (50% getting it already so don't jinx it)! I am going to stay with Jibraan, Rickie, Jared, Kisho and Brendon. Here is the thing, this is why I'm counting down. On the positive side, yes I do miss my girlfriend a lot. Oh wait pause, did I not mention I have a gf? xD Ok her name is Abigail and she is from Singapore, end of story. That, and I can't wait to get my academic year started, like seriously. My current mood is super pumped up to learn more stuff. I know this feeling will fade away sooner or later, but lets just keep it as it is right now first aite HAHA!! Not just that, can't wait to see my Dublin friends again. Sure there aren't that many and sooner or later I will say that I see them until wanna puke ad, haha but now definitely want la haha! Lets not forget the chillin weather in Dublin haha! Its so hot back here I can melt to death T.T
Of course there is the flip side. One thing would definitely be money. Once I get back there, my expenses would be high and life would be miserable once I think about it. Heck, even when i think of it now I'm freaking depressed :( Seriously why can't everything be cheaper and why does the MYR have to go down until its shite. Sien. I still have to buy a sofa bed cuz somehow I got stuck with the room that initially was the only cheapest room. Now that room is the similar price as a single bed room and they don't need to buy beds z. Good thing the Jar of Grills have mentioned about splitting the cost of the bed with me so im seriously hoping it wont be too expensive that I will actually cry T.T Worse come to worst I sleep on mattresses :( Next, would be a freakishly busy year from all the M night stuff and all that. Maybe I'll even squeeze in a small job just to have some extra money to spend. Who knows? :) Hopefully I don't get too tired la *fingers crossed*
For now let me just enjoy my life and next week is my Bali competition already!! Hopefully everything will be smooth sailing and I really cannot wait to hear all the great music yeah... OWH AND IM GONNA HAVE A NEW PHONE MUAHAHAHA CANT WAIT RAWR XD Thats it for now! Cheers guys :)
Friday, June 5, 2015
Back to the land of good food and hotness
Firstly, went back to choir and all!! Great feeling to meet some of the juniors and my fellow sampat choir friends. Although I only fully met ALL of them during Ren Jie's proposal towards Verone haha. That is one of the highlights of my return hehe!! Cece, Zhi Jie, Ting Jia also haven't come back to witness this moment MUAHAHAHA!! Nice to see their relationship finally going on to the next level le hehe.. but is sooner or later de la haha! Now is just to wait for their wedding and first born nia MUAHAHAHA!! Ok... overuse of muahahaha within this first paragraph.
Secondly, already met up with the bimbo Shane who lives so bloody near me that its retarded lol.. Had a great 3 hour chat in Doi Chaang Coffee while sharing life stories from the last 9 months haha!! Good times.. then strolled around taipan while getting ourselves blue coned ice creams from mcDonalds. IT WAS BLUE CONED OMG! Was hoping for blueberry flavor or something but was let down. Sien. Then Shane had to crack a joke saying the ice creams were cold so the cones got blue. Sakai laughing at her own joke the entire way back to her house. GENIUS! xD
Nothing much really changed back here except for the new BRT and soon-to-be LRT and stuff. Public transport still crap but I just need to live with it sometimes, Food price and all, everything went up, Ringgit getting shittier and shittier by the day. Oh well, welcome back to Malaysia xD
Sunday, May 17, 2015
2 months hiatus
Good thing is.. now EXAMS ARE OVERR!!! Finally I don't have to deal with bullshit modules for another 3 months or so. As I am typing this, I will be on board a plane back to Malaysia in 2 hours or so hehehe... Back to the land of mamaks and good food. And my familyyyyy gahhhh!! Dublin has been really kind to me for these 9 months. Moving out of the campus residence was a pain in the ass as I don't have my own place to call home when I come home YET. Hopefully that will change soon *fingers crossed*. Exams wise, I think I did ok considering the fact that I hardly studied at all HAHA!! Life is hard.. Another one to cross fingers for xD This 3 months break will be surely appreciated.
Now I am the junior producer for next year's Malaysian Night as there was a change in agreement between PMC and UCD on the returning dates of Stage 4 students (now students have to go back to PMC by December, bummer.) I'd be lying to you if I said I wasn't stressed out by this LOL.. Getting sketch director in the first place is bad enough as I've only directed one play before and that was in freakin 2010. Looking back at the video of that play, it was hilarious laa HAHA!! Plans are on the way and looks like I'll be a busy bee when I get back to Dublin next semester... Hmm..
Truth to be told, Asian food is the best already. Its something that you won't get sick off. Maybe its a bias opinion as I am an Asian myself, but to whoever travelling overseas.. treat ur Asian food well.. HAHA!! Plans for the summer include finding and indulge in any Asian food there is hehe.. EVERYTHING WILL BE CONSUMED RAWR! Of course my plans for this summer include work out, work (hopefully get one), choir (thank goodness I'M COMING BACK RAWR), and basically spending time with my family which I've missed so much..
Dublin has given me so many things (including a surprise in my life xD) and its time to put all that on a hold while I go back to Malaysia for a well deserved (sort-of) break haha!! This post is gonna be quite short as I don't think I have loads to add! Anddd the gate is open.. SO SEE YOU GUYS REAL SOON <3 cheers="" font="">3>
Sunday, March 1, 2015
Big pile of lazy bum writings
Alright, to say that I was busy, kinda maybe, It was Malaysia Night 2015, then more and more stuff came on. But those are kinda excuses. I promised myself I would update about the trips ASAP but when I sit in front of the laptop and turn on my blog, my mind just goes.. blank.. Like white piece of paper blank. I have a couple of drafts in my blog for the trip but they're just always incomplete. I have a feeling the only time I will have the mood to finish it is when I'm sitting on the airplane and typing away the 15 hour flight back to Malaysia.(Then suffer really bad jet lag when I get back to Malaysia)
So hitting March, it is the Spring break soon, well in a week to be exact. Not going anywhere this time, wanted to go to London to watch Jay's Imperial College Malaysian Night performance, but then the cost turned me down and plus he will only appear for less than a minute lol. Although Si Ming did ask us to go and watch Imperial's M Night, don't really think its worth it for what its cost. Rather go to London when all of the gang is free and we can walk around where everyone aren't tied up with stuff. Seeing how the things are right now, I would have to say it might be next year before I go over there lol... Did I mention I am currently in the Malaysian Society UCD committee? Cuz I really don't remember I did. Anyway, I am currently the Stage 2 Rep. Looking ahead at the events calender of M Soc, I will definitely be a very de busy man. LOL
Anyway, enough on that, on everything else in life, I would have to say its very calm. Nothing much has gone on. Oh yeah, I had a good Chinese New Year celebration here so far. Although the ang paus are waiting for me back home, the seniors had a really great CNY plan worked out :)
除夕夜
Joyce arranged a dinner for us Malaysians out in town at the Ten Thousand Asian Buffet Restaurant. Not really sure about the name tho due there being 2 Ten Thousand buffet place in Dublin LOL. Trust me, it wasn't a good start to Chinese New Year. The food was terrible, the waiter was unbearable in my opinion, and we still had to pay 7.50 euros for that crap. Of course it was nice to see some rare faces outside of class like Fei Ya who in my mind was always studying and Justin who was in Genetics. Other than the togetherness, it was really a night to forget. Most of us came back with some upset stomach-ish kind of thing that night. According to the seniors we actually went to the better one, but when the Singaporeans went for the other Ten Thousand the week after, apparently they had a waayy more positive experience LOL. They had to pay more but from the sound of it, it was worth it. :/
初一
This day was more quiet than what I was used to. Back in Malaysia I guess I will be in Puchong almost the whole day watching CNY specials on Astro with all ze cousins, uncles and aunts. But for this year, it was going to lectures, giving oranges to the class, football with de seniors, bowling with total random people, and gambling with seniors lol. The bowling session was organized by the Reslife organization and somehow I signed up, alone. So the first person i met was Leo Lau from Hong Kong doing engineering. Then we shared lanes with 4 other girls. There were Gina and Jen from the States, Anna from Sweden and Kaushalya from India. :) It was a really fun night and we all had fun knowing each other. Great stuff. Gina was really cute tho haha.. Dun think too much. ANYWAY, back to gambling in seniors house, lost like 6 euros that night, and brendon was the big winner that night. Life is sad lol..
初二
Today was basically cooking day. After coming back from the early lecture, I was in the kitchen for almost the whole day preparing to cook for the potluck in the Keat Zai's house. I made 糯米鸡 my mum's style with Jared's overbought glutinous rice HAHA!! Turned out to be quite successful!! I cooked 2 batches, a halal and non-halal version, technically a vegan and non-vegan version LOL! The only difference was the non-halal had chicken thigh meat instead of carrots.. cuz i was too lazy to go to the mosque to get halal meat. Oh well, still tasted good :) Made me a really happy boy when I saw the rice disappear so fast on the table. Haha!! Stayed around till like 3 or 4 o clock because Andrew was too drunk to be able to walk home haha!! Great night tho :) First time seeing Andrew Richards drunk and talking crap. Although by this time I kinda lost my voice already.
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| What was left of the glutinous rice by the time I was close enough to take a picture HAHA |
初三
Went for the RCSI CNY event in Malaysian Hall with the gang and met the keat zais in the bus. Went in together and the event was ok.. We were late so we kinda skipped a few performances. I joined the charades game just for fun. Got into the finals but we lost. Oh well, onto the food!! Probably its because Alex raised my expectations for the food too high, the food didnt turn out to be that great. Well at least not to my liking :/ We had a bit of Yee Sang which was fine :) Then tang yuens which is a no for me lol. Went home to rest after that. That rest was so valuable as the night karaoke session with Alex, Khai, Wilson and the other bunch of seniors and some of the peeps in my gang was super tiring. Imagine singing karaoke from 7pm-2am. Holy crap. It was definitely one of the longest karaoke session I had. I didn't really enjoyed myself due to my fucked up throat and so many songs that I wanted to sing. The good thing was I got to enjoy Alex and Rachel's singing which was really good. Can't wait to sing with them nicely haha!! There was also an automatic mahjong table which was freaking cool. It was on the whole night and some people were glued onto it. HAHA!! Brendon and I even played chinese chess with poker cards, cuz there weren't any chess pieces haha!! All in all, a great night, can't wait to go there again. Oh yeah, forgot to mention that it was a Korean restaurant which charges like approx 15-16 per person for BBQ buffet. All you can eat. Or u can order the ala carte which was approx 10 euros a plate? Not bad lar.. quite big HAHA!!
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| Let your imagination flow and you will know what is what HAHA! |
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| Ze lou sang session |
That practically wrapped up whatever real celebration I really had. Just remembered that there was also a Valentine's Day hiking trip yet to be posted, but may save that for later. Till next time, Ciao!! :)
Things change so fast
**This post took legit 3 months to type.. I think i subconsciously didn't want to relive the memory but oh well.. sorry if the timeline ...
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The only reason why I'm writing this here is because I'm at a place that I'm not comfortable with and I need a place to rant and...
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**This post took legit 3 months to type.. I think i subconsciously didn't want to relive the memory but oh well.. sorry if the timeline ...



